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I have been in and out of doctor's offices for almost 20 years now, and have been addicted now to prescription painkillers from Vicodin, Percdan, to Morphine.
As I am now in a catch 22, I have now been on Methadone (for Chronic Pain) for years now, along with tranquilizers for PTSD, antidepressants, as well as other narcotic painkillers for "breakthrough pain".
I am in deep in the throes of addiction, have abused my medications, and gone through the hell of withdrawal, more than once. I still have not learned my lesson. I was one of those who thought, "not me. I can handle it. I won't get hooked". Now, I can't think of waking up without my first thought being, "where are all my pills, and how many have I got to get me through the rest of the month?"
I ruptured 2 disks, and had my lower back fused in my early 30's. I'm now in my early 40's, and still, there is no way out for me. They say that admitting you're an addict is half the battle. If so, then why am I still in the trenches?
posted 4 years, 3 months ago
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