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I had lived through emotional abuse. I was living with someone I thought was the love of my life and did not realize the my life was not normal. She made demands on me that would change and I could never live up to her standards. The bar was set higher each time I did reach her goals. I would be yelled at an demoralized if the cup handles were not all facing the same direction when I did the dishes. I was constantly reminded how I didn't live up to her standards. All the way to the last day we were together I was accused of lying to her when I know I didn't. This person would push my buttons over and over and over which would lead to me yelling at the top of my lungs "Leave me alone"! And then she would acuse me of abusing her because I yelled. This person left me with emotional scars that still are a part of me today, 11 years later and affects my ability for self worth. I have been beaten down emotionally so much that I don't want to date because I feel I have nothing to offer.
posted 2 years, 4 months ago
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